It's almost November.

But not quite yet.

Although I wish it were.

Because November is NaNoWriMo.

I am excited about this.

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I am bored and don't know what to do with my life. () So you can tell me what to do! I'll make a sketch of whatever you want, if you tell me in a comment - first five only.

I've finally made the big step and started a webcomic, which is why I haven't been on here so often anymore. You can check it out here: www.schadenfreude.be

I stole this.
Apparently you have to put your music list to shuffle and answer the questions with the songs that appear, in order.

Okie, so you gotta put your musics on shuffle and use the titles in the right order- don't cheat! to answer these questions.

How does the world see me?:
Summer: Tense - Clint Mansell and the Kronos Quartet
... that might be accurate.

Will I have a happy life?:
Amerika - Rammstein
Like they say, it's wunderbahr.

What do people really think of me?:
The Beetlejuice TV-Series Theme Song
Oh, if only.

Do people secretly lust after me?:
The Plagues - Prince of Egypt Soundtrack
That's just rude. Seriously.

How can I make myself happy?:
High and Dry - Radiohead
I'm liking the "high" part.

What should I do with my life?:
Heroes from the Past - Oratory
I am Hercules incarnate!

Will I ever have children?:
Hidden Souls - Equilibrium Soundtrack
That seems like a very creepy yes. The way I interpret it is that I'll knock up some girl whilst I'm drunk.

What is some good advice for me?:
Night at the Roses - Dresden Dolls
I'm allergic to flowers.

What do I think my current theme song is?:
Brothers - Pearl Harbour Soundtrack
I'm so corny.

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?:
Your Stories, My Alibis - Matchbook Romance
Others think I'm screamy punky emo?

What song will play at my funeral?:
4 Mains - Wim Mertens (Belly of an Architect Soundtrack)
That'd be cool actually. But only if it was performed live on a grand piano.

What type of men/women do you like?:
Imaginary - Evanesence
Wow. Just wow.

What is my day going to be like?:
Confrontation - Les Misérables Soundtrack
I hope so. Life's been boring recently. I could do with some drama confrontation stuff.

Why am I here?:
I'm Into Folk - The Radio's
So true. I AM HERE TO FOLKDANCE!

What will people remember me for?:
Dead Girls - Voltaire
... Well my classmates always said about our group picture "This is the one they're going to use in documentaries when you're finally a famous serial killer".

What song will I get stuck in my head tomorrow?:
Meeting Tom Riddle - Harry Potter CoS Soundtrack
Unlikely, but could be.

Are there people outside waiting to take me away?:
The Battle - Gladiator Soundtrack
Fight fight fight! *locks door*

What will this year be all about?:
Tears To Shed - Corpse Bride Soundtrack
Damnit. Although nobody said anything about it being my tears.


Feel free to steal this as well, and let me know if you do.

And also, I've been on DeviantArt for two years and two days now. Woohoo.

So as you may or may not have noticed, I've drawn a comic-sort-of thing about pirates, starring my webcomic-in-the-making characters.

I actually made this "comic" (I think it's more like a movie trailer actually, hence the quotes) for a contest at ~ComicArtistsUnite. Now, the contest is over, and the voting has begun untill friday the 11th of august.

The problem is, nobody's voting (I don't mean nobody's voting for me, I mean, nobody's voting, at all) So I'm asking you all nicely to hop over there and vote! (Again, I don't necessarily mean "vote for meeeee", I mean "check all the entries out and vote for the one you honestly like best" )

I'm not sure if you have to be a member of the club to be able to vote, but meh. Go check it out anyway, it needs some more activity and it has some pretty good stuff.

You can vote at [link]

Thanks.

"The only person who should be self-loathing, is the one who kills someone, for no reason at all, and goes home to have a cup of coffe."

I dreamed I murdered someone.

I dreamed I murdered several people. Instead of guilt or remorse, I was filled with an overwhelming fear of getting found out - as if the only thing stopping me from killing was not a sense of morals or ethics, but the realisation of the consequences. This is in fact a theme I first thought about right after seeing The Great Ecstacy of Robert Carmichael, but I never really consciously thought about it.

There was a head in my refrigerator. There were bodies, hidden in my room. In the dream - not unlike in real life - I had to move out soon, and my main recurring thought was "Shit, what do I do with the bodies?". Every time I relaxed, every time I sank back into a more peaceful state of mind, there was a shriek - "Shit, what do I do with the bodies?"

I woke up in the middle of dragging a corpse to the river, argueing with myself that it was no good, the cops would find out, even the water wouldn't wash away the forensic evidence, they'd find it all out. Shit shit shit. And suddenly I am in my bed, shivering, recognising a bad dream for what it is, and pulling the sheets over my head.

I close my eyes, trying to get some sleep - I only have half an hour left before I have to wake up and go to work. I relax. And suddenly, my heart skips a beat. For a moment, I'm filled with sheer panic, as I think "Shit, what am I going to do with the bodies?"

"... What bodies? It was a dream."
The bodies in your room.
"There are no bodies in my room. It's not real."
Isn't it?
Doubt. Paranoia. Panic.
The head in your refrigerator, isn't it real?

I'm awake. But not really. The reality of my dream enters the reality of my life. I see myself lying in bed, bodies scattered all around me, the sickening odour of decay filling up my nose. When my alarm clock goes off, I snap out of it, shivering and ready to throw up.



Maybe there is something wrong with my head after all.